Hi, my name is Vicki.

I am on a journey of learning to be a good girl.

December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas :)

It's tough being alone on Christmas day, so what better time to reach out to the world and hope that all of your wishes have come true. If not, don't despair, life has a way of working out.

Most of my wishes have not come true this year either. Not giving up yet, though! :)
One of them did, however. In the last few months, especially, I have really felt more feminine and happy about it than ever before. 14 or 15 months of estrogen (in my case at least, 16 months now) seems to have been the tipping point where the remaining masculinity disappears. Emotionally especially, but also physically.
It's a wonderful wish come true!

Which brings me to the real reason I wanted to write something here today.
This blog seems to have morphed into a kind of giant personal ad. I thought I might as well add some additional information, just in case the right man does happen upon my blog.
Just when I really need him :)

I guess what I'm really looking for as what any girl wants, to be appreciated and loved for me. I obviously have lots of interesting fantasies, and would be happy to indulge in any of them, but an actual relationship needs to be more than that. I'm kind of imagining a couple in a long term relationship, doing all the normal stuff like having dinner, sometimes watching TV, going for walks, shopping, all of that. And ... of course, sucking his cock whenever he's in the mood, doing everything I can to be the best woman possible.
He needs to be a take charge kinda guy. Knows what he wants and needs. A man that appreciates how special that relationship could be.

Is that too much to ask?

I hope he reads this.

On that note, if everyone that reads this far were to share my plight with 2 of their friends ..... Who knows, maybe eventually he will see it? :)

Merry Christmas, one and all.

December 6, 2012

Musing ....

Laying on my bed, alone, not in the best of moods. Why not update my blog, right? :)
It's been a long day at work and it's good to come home and change into something more comfortable and relax for a while. Guess it would have been even better if Daddy had been here, but, alas .....
Did my monthly check of my budding breasts tonight, they've definitely grown again!! :) Yay !!
I did get 2 new bras for them :), wearing one now actually. I love how a good bra can really give them shape, and how the bra kinda hugs them :)
My breasts are pretty sensitive, and a bra helps with that too. Plus they're pretty, what's not too like?

Feel better now :)

Think I'll take off my top and get a better look and feel ...

If you read my blog, please leave a comment or send an email, I'd love to hear from you :)

November 24, 2012

Daddy was right ...

A few years ago, I corresponded with somebody who made a big impact on my life.
His name was Michael - I wish we hadn't lost touch.
I'd never been - or have been since - as close to committing to give myself completely as I was with him.

My mind was in a huge turmoil back then, but now the things he told me make a lot more sense.
This is one of the letters he sent:

The reason you're having doubts about being a sub girl could be chemistry. Your conscious mind may want to be Vicki, but your brain is producing too much testosterone to let that happen.

If we were together right now, all the male hormones coursing through your body would make you feel self-conscious about how your body looked. You would be too embarrassed to crawl around for me, and you'd definitely feel emasculated having me jump you.

If you really want to be Vicki you'll have to actively change yourself physically, and hormones are the only way to do this.

On hormones, you'll grow a real set of breasts, it'll be much easier to get that bubble butt, and your face will actually become more feminine. Eventually your mindset will change too, and not only will your lips be fuller and rounder, but you'll actually beg to suck Daddy's dick.

On hormones you will need daddy to dominate you. You won't be self-conscious anymore dancing for Daddy, you'll feel sexy. You'll no longer feel emasculated letting Daddy take you from behind, you'll feel satisfied. You'll want your new shapely butt cheeks to shake as Daddy fucks you.


All I can say now is "Daddy was right".
Estrogen rules!

November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving :)

Just wanted to take a minute and wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving!

All me :)
Me :)
I'm sure we all have something to be thankful for :)
Feeling a bit lonely myself today, but I have decided to be positive and make today "Thanks for my boobies" day :).
They're definitely growing :)) and from now on I will treat them like they deserve to be.
No more breastforms, some really nice bras (shopping !!), some nice lotion - at least everyday. mmmm

Now I just need someone to want to feel them ..... :)
Happy Booby Day!

November 7, 2012

Back :)

Just a quick update to let you - whoever you may be - know that I'm finally back!

I'm so happy to report that I've finally taken the plunge and started Hormone Replacement Therapy to help my body match my mind.
14 months and counting so far, and feeling better all the time!