Hi, my name is Vicki.

I am on a journey of learning to be a good girl.

January 11, 2014

Football .... an aphrodisiac ?

It's Saturday afternoon, just got done with my shower.
Football game on TV, Seattle playing New Orleans.
I'm imagine my Daddy is a Seahawks fan, so I hope they win :)

In case you're curious, this is one of the things I think about, every time there's a game on.

Like I said, just got out of the shower. All nice and clean, and smoothie :)
From a previous life I remember what a non event that was. Turn it on, jump in, wash my hair, maybe shave, dry off. Done.
It's a lot more involved nowadays ... even showers are different for girls :)
I enjoy the process a lot, a little special time just for me.
First I lay out a nice big fluffy towel, and some clean panties for when I'm done.
After undressing, I always take a few minutes to check my body. Any stray hairs on my legs? Do my underarms need shaving and is my bikini area still nice and smooth?
Rub my hands and fingers over my legs and body. That's probably not necessary, but it does feel good :)  Only then do I turn the shower on.
Once it's all nice, hot and steamy, I just love getting in and feeling that water on my skin. Feeling it run down my body, caressing me from head to toe. Little water fingers on my back, running over my butt and down my legs :)

Seahawks up by 16 at halftime :)

Back to my shower ....
I still start by washing my hair, then shaving. Touch up any areas that I noticed needed attention. Since its Saturday, it takes a little extra time, been slacking off during the week :(
First my pits - sorry if that's TMI - and today also my lower legs. Get it all lathered up with some shaving cream, then get rid of any hair I can find.
Today my privates needed some attention too. Perhaps you cam imagine, it's pleasantly erotic to lather there, make sure it's completely covered. Then rub it up and down, just to make sure :)
Running the razor over that sensitive skin, checking to make sure it's smooth, all over. Rub on some more shaving cream and do it again, just to make sure. Run the razor down between my legs, all the way back. Feeling to see if I missed any spots at all :)

Next is more body care, my loofah and some nice body wash, keep my skin smooth.

Guess it's obvious by now why showers take so much longer for girls.

Forgot to mention how wonderful it feels to gently wash myself. One of the many things I love love love about having more and more female hormones is the way my skin feels so much softer and sensitive. Just wonderful!
Another, of course, are the breasts :)
I'll admit that my boobies are probably the cleanest part of my body, they always seem to get a lot of attention when I'm in the shower ;)
I do love being a girl!

After drying off, I moisturize everywhere. Another opportunity to rub myself down :)
Yes, I do love being a girl!

I do wish Daddy was here though, it's football day and I need his cock in my mouth ....

December 8, 2013

Still here :)

Someone posted a comment last night on one of my stories, thank you.
Reminded me I haven't said hi in a while.

Soooooooo ...... hi :)


September 9, 2013

More thoughts ... 2 years in

It's my second anniversary. 2 years since I started HRT :)
Quite the ride, but I'm certainly enjoying the results so far!
Softer, smoother, rounder and, best of all, real breasts :)

Still searching for my Daddy though ....

I've had a few 'relationships' over the years, but still nothing serious.
Tough to figure out why.
I'm not unattractive, fun to be around and give great head!
What more could you want? Lol

I've tried going out, meeting people, even posted on Craigslist !

It's frustrating.

But .... I'm happy with myself!!! :)

September 2, 2013

Back online :)

It's been too long, looking forward to getting back in touch!
For those of you that are in the know .... 2 years this week :))

December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas :)

It's tough being alone on Christmas day, so what better time to reach out to the world and hope that all of your wishes have come true. If not, don't despair, life has a way of working out.

Most of my wishes have not come true this year either. Not giving up yet, though! :)
One of them did, however. In the last few months, especially, I have really felt more feminine and happy about it than ever before. 14 or 15 months of estrogen (in my case at least, 16 months now) seems to have been the tipping point where the remaining masculinity disappears. Emotionally especially, but also physically.
It's a wonderful wish come true!

Which brings me to the real reason I wanted to write something here today.
This blog seems to have morphed into a kind of giant personal ad. I thought I might as well add some additional information, just in case the right man does happen upon my blog.
Just when I really need him :)

I guess what I'm really looking for as what any girl wants, to be appreciated and loved for me. I obviously have lots of interesting fantasies, and would be happy to indulge in any of them, but an actual relationship needs to be more than that. I'm kind of imagining a couple in a long term relationship, doing all the normal stuff like having dinner, sometimes watching TV, going for walks, shopping, all of that. And ... of course, sucking his cock whenever he's in the mood, doing everything I can to be the best woman possible.
He needs to be a take charge kinda guy. Knows what he wants and needs. A man that appreciates how special that relationship could be.

Is that too much to ask?

I hope he reads this.

On that note, if everyone that reads this far were to share my plight with 2 of their friends ..... Who knows, maybe eventually he will see it? :)

Merry Christmas, one and all.

December 6, 2012

Musing ....

Laying on my bed, alone, not in the best of moods. Why not update my blog, right? :)
It's been a long day at work and it's good to come home and change into something more comfortable and relax for a while. Guess it would have been even better if Daddy had been here, but, alas .....
Did my monthly check of my budding breasts tonight, they've definitely grown again!! :) Yay !!
I did get 2 new bras for them :), wearing one now actually. I love how a good bra can really give them shape, and how the bra kinda hugs them :)
My breasts are pretty sensitive, and a bra helps with that too. Plus they're pretty, what's not too like?

Feel better now :)

Think I'll take off my top and get a better look and feel ...

If you read my blog, please leave a comment or send an email, I'd love to hear from you :)

November 24, 2012

Daddy was right ...

A few years ago, I corresponded with somebody who made a big impact on my life.
His name was Michael - I wish we hadn't lost touch.
I'd never been - or have been since - as close to committing to give myself completely as I was with him.

My mind was in a huge turmoil back then, but now the things he told me make a lot more sense.
This is one of the letters he sent:

The reason you're having doubts about being a sub girl could be chemistry. Your conscious mind may want to be Vicki, but your brain is producing too much testosterone to let that happen.

If we were together right now, all the male hormones coursing through your body would make you feel self-conscious about how your body looked. You would be too embarrassed to crawl around for me, and you'd definitely feel emasculated having me jump you.

If you really want to be Vicki you'll have to actively change yourself physically, and hormones are the only way to do this.

On hormones, you'll grow a real set of breasts, it'll be much easier to get that bubble butt, and your face will actually become more feminine. Eventually your mindset will change too, and not only will your lips be fuller and rounder, but you'll actually beg to suck Daddy's dick.

On hormones you will need daddy to dominate you. You won't be self-conscious anymore dancing for Daddy, you'll feel sexy. You'll no longer feel emasculated letting Daddy take you from behind, you'll feel satisfied. You'll want your new shapely butt cheeks to shake as Daddy fucks you.


All I can say now is "Daddy was right".
Estrogen rules!

November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving :)

Just wanted to take a minute and wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving!

All me :)
Me :)
I'm sure we all have something to be thankful for :)
Feeling a bit lonely myself today, but I have decided to be positive and make today "Thanks for my boobies" day :).
They're definitely growing :)) and from now on I will treat them like they deserve to be.
No more breastforms, some really nice bras (shopping !!), some nice lotion - at least everyday. mmmm

Now I just need someone to want to feel them ..... :)
Happy Booby Day!

November 7, 2012

Back :)

Just a quick update to let you - whoever you may be - know that I'm finally back!

I'm so happy to report that I've finally taken the plunge and started Hormone Replacement Therapy to help my body match my mind.
14 months and counting so far, and feeling better all the time!

October 22, 2010

What's a girl to do ... help!

Dear readers,

Vicki is currently at a bit of a crossroad in her life, hence the lack of postings recently.
However, I just realized .... this is a blog and I could, or should, actually share my thoughts and feelings here, maybe even ask for your input :)

I’m actually doing quite well and am now, and have been for the past 2 months, living as a woman as much as possible. Pretty much all the time, unless I'm at work  (although I do indulge and wear my panties then, of course).

It’s soooooooooooooooo wonderful !!! :)
Going to continue for the foreseeable future and see where it takes me.

It does bring up some other issues though, and the last few weeks especially, I've started feeling very awkward when I’m not being Vicki, and a huge desire for wishing my body looked more like I feel it should.

It’s a huge deal.
I've been doing tons of research and ultimately I feel that what needs to happen is for my body AND my mind to change.
There's really only one way to do that, and that's hormones ... girl hormones.

SO ..... that's where I'd love some input - should I start down that path ?