Hi, my name is Vicki.

I am on a journey of learning to be a good girl.

August 12, 2008

Some thoughts ...

Somebody left a comment the other day that made me think a bit ... not too much though, being the ditzy blond that I am ;)

Are you sure this is what you want? I think the FANTASY is hot too, but fantasies by definition are PERFECT. Do you really want to live your whole life in a fantasy? I'm just wondering. I'm not sitting in judgement. I'm writing as one who shares your fantasy, but refuses to let my entire existence become utterly debauched and degraded . . . all for the sake of some pleasure between my legs. Oh, I've had my moments of debauchery, and may have more. But make a life out of it? Nahh. - Heather.

First let me say that before I embarked on this journey, I thought about exactly the same things that Heather brings up, many, many times over many, many years.
In the end, it was clear to me that, of course this is what I want ... it is a wonderful fantasy, but I have also given a lot of thought to the down side, and realize reality is not as perfect as the fantasy is.
What really drives me though is not the pleasure between MY legs, it's the pleasure that's between my ears, knowing that Daddy is pleased between HIS legs.
Of course there are some things - family, work etc. - that by necessity will limit how far Daddy can take me, and how much I can do for him. In fact, that has been our biggest problem.
In the end, though, it's not about fantasy, it's about the undeniable NEED inside me to stop repressing these feelings - and take a chance and live life to the fullest. If, in the end, it doesn't work out, so be it - but at least I tried ! I need to be an object of desire, I need to let the submissive girl inside me out to play, and most of all I need a man to please ... Daddy.