Hi, my name is Vicki.

I am on a journey of learning to be a good girl.

August 12, 2008

Some thoughts ...

Somebody left a comment the other day that made me think a bit ... not too much though, being the ditzy blond that I am ;)

Are you sure this is what you want? I think the FANTASY is hot too, but fantasies by definition are PERFECT. Do you really want to live your whole life in a fantasy? I'm just wondering. I'm not sitting in judgement. I'm writing as one who shares your fantasy, but refuses to let my entire existence become utterly debauched and degraded . . . all for the sake of some pleasure between my legs. Oh, I've had my moments of debauchery, and may have more. But make a life out of it? Nahh. - Heather.

First let me say that before I embarked on this journey, I thought about exactly the same things that Heather brings up, many, many times over many, many years.
In the end, it was clear to me that, of course this is what I want ... it is a wonderful fantasy, but I have also given a lot of thought to the down side, and realize reality is not as perfect as the fantasy is.
What really drives me though is not the pleasure between MY legs, it's the pleasure that's between my ears, knowing that Daddy is pleased between HIS legs.
Of course there are some things - family, work etc. - that by necessity will limit how far Daddy can take me, and how much I can do for him. In fact, that has been our biggest problem.
In the end, though, it's not about fantasy, it's about the undeniable NEED inside me to stop repressing these feelings - and take a chance and live life to the fullest. If, in the end, it doesn't work out, so be it - but at least I tried ! I need to be an object of desire, I need to let the submissive girl inside me out to play, and most of all I need a man to please ... Daddy.



Anonymous said...

God, yes. A thousand times yes.



Anonymous said...

Points well taken, Vicki. You gave up on Reality and decided a good fantasy is better. But nonetheless, reality will persist. There will always be a difference between a fantasy enacted and a fantasy held within. So while you may have opted for the fantasy what you will get is the fantasy + CLOD. That's the fantasy in the Cold Light of Day.

Okay, so who is this Daddy? Are you in a committed relationship? Are you his gurlfriend? If so, what do you do together? Does he take you out to dinner? Does he buy you presents? Does he care about you, emotionally? or are you just his suck doll, his dick doll? What I have found is that men ALWAYS treat trannies like fetishistic objects, and not as human beings. Now, granted, being a fetishistic object can be fascinating and erotic too, but being a person with a heart and a mind and a soul, I invariably rebel against being reduced in this way. There is an inevitably EMPTINESS that sets in . . .

Maybe you will avoid this trap. Maybe you will find that one in a million men who will actually treat you like a woman, rather than a doll. And beware if he doesn't want to go anywhere with you. Bad sign. But please, do dish the details. I really want to know more about "Daddy."


Anonymous said...

a sissy's should be willing to keep her man satified and happy. It is a pleasure to suck his wonderful cock and surrender your sissy pussy to his cock. A good Daddy will then be willing to take care of His little sissy.

Anonymous said...

Vicki, where are you? I'm eager to learn of how things are going with Daddy. I hope you are being good sissy slut, taking care of his cock.