Football .... an aphrodisiac ?

It's Saturday afternoon, just got done with my shower.
Football game on TV, Seattle playing New Orleans.
I'm imagine my Daddy is a Seahawks fan, so I hope they win :)

In case you're curious, this is one of the things I think about, every time there's a game on.

Like I said, just got out of the shower. All nice and clean, and smoothie :)
From a previous life I remember what a non event that was. Turn it on, jump in, wash my hair, maybe shave, dry off. Done.
It's a lot more involved nowadays ... even showers are different for girls :)
I enjoy the process a lot, a little special time just for me.
First I lay out a nice big fluffy towel, and some clean panties for when I'm done.
After undressing, I always take a few minutes to check my body. Any stray hairs on my legs? Do my underarms need shaving and is my bikini area still nice and smooth?
Rub my hands and fingers over my legs and body. That's probably not necessary, but it does feel good :)  Only then do I turn the shower on.
Once it's all nice, hot and steamy, I just love getting in and feeling that water on my skin. Feeling it run down my body, caressing me from head to toe. Little water fingers on my back, running over my butt and down my legs :)

Seahawks up by 16 at halftime :)

Back to my shower ....
I still start by washing my hair, then shaving. Touch up any areas that I noticed needed attention. Since its Saturday, it takes a little extra time, been slacking off during the week :(
First my pits - sorry if that's TMI - and today also my lower legs. Get it all lathered up with some shaving cream, then get rid of any hair I can find.
Today my privates needed some attention too. Perhaps you cam imagine, it's pleasantly erotic to lather there, make sure it's completely covered. Then rub it up and down, just to make sure :)
Running the razor over that sensitive skin, checking to make sure it's smooth, all over. Rub on some more shaving cream and do it again, just to make sure. Run the razor down between my legs, all the way back. Feeling to see if I missed any spots at all :)


Next is more body care, my loofah and some nice body wash, keep my skin smooth.

Guess it's obvious by now why showers take so much longer for girls.

Forgot to mention how wonderful it feels to gently wash myself. One of the many things I love love love about having more and more female hormones is the way my skin feels so much softer and sensitive. Just wonderful!
Another, of course, are the breasts :)
I'll admit that my boobies are probably the cleanest part of my body, they always seem to get a lot of attention when I'm in the shower ;)
I do love being a girl!

After drying off, I moisturize everywhere. Another opportunity to rub myself down :)
Yes, I do love being a girl!

I do wish Daddy was here though, it's football day and I need his cock in my mouth ....

Still here :)

Someone posted a comment last night on one of my stories, thank you.
Reminded me I haven't said hi in a while.


Soooooooo ...... hi :)

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More thoughts ... 2 years in

It's my second anniversary. 2 years since I started HRT :)
Quite the ride, but I'm certainly enjoying the results so far!
Softer, smoother, rounder and, best of all, real breasts :)

Still searching for my Daddy though ....

I've had a few 'relationships' over the years, but still nothing serious.
Tough to figure out why.
I'm not unattractive, fun to be around and give great head!
What more could you want? Lol

I've tried going out, meeting people, even posted on Craigslist !

It's frustrating.

But .... I'm happy with myself!!! :)

Back online :)

It's been too long, looking forward to getting back in touch!
For those of you that are in the know .... 2 years this week :))

Merry Christmas :)

It's tough being alone on Christmas day, so what better time to reach out to the world and hope that all of your wishes have come true. If not, don't despair, life has a way of working out.

Most of my wishes have not come true this year either. Not giving up yet, though! :)
One of them did, however. In the last few months, especially, I have really felt more feminine and happy about it than ever before. 14 or 15 months of estrogen (in my case at least, 16 months now) seems to have been the tipping point where the remaining masculinity disappears. Emotionally especially, but also physically.
It's a wonderful wish come true!

Which brings me to the real reason I wanted to write something here today.
This blog seems to have morphed into a kind of giant personal ad. I thought I might as well add some additional information, just in case the right man does happen upon my blog.
Just when I really need him :)

I guess what I'm really looking for as what any girl wants, to be appreciated and loved for me. I obviously have lots of interesting fantasies, and would be happy to indulge in any of them, but an actual relationship needs to be more than that. I'm kind of imagining a couple in a long term relationship, doing all the normal stuff like having dinner, sometimes watching TV, going for walks, shopping, all of that. And ... of course, sucking his cock whenever he's in the mood, doing everything I can to be the best woman possible.
He needs to be a take charge kinda guy. Knows what he wants and needs. A man that appreciates how special that relationship could be.

Is that too much to ask?

I hope he reads this.

On that note, if everyone that reads this far were to share my plight with 2 of their friends ..... Who knows, maybe eventually he will see it? :)

Merry Christmas, one and all.

Musing ....

Laying on my bed, alone, not in the best of moods. Why not update my blog, right? :)
It's been a long day at work and it's good to come home and change into something more comfortable and relax for a while. Guess it would have been even better if Daddy had been here, but, alas .....
Did my monthly check of my budding breasts tonight, they've definitely grown again!! :) Yay !!
I did get 2 new bras for them :), wearing one now actually. I love how a good bra can really give them shape, and how the bra kinda hugs them :)
My breasts are pretty sensitive, and a bra helps with that too. Plus they're pretty, what's not too like?

Feel better now :)

Think I'll take off my top and get a better look and feel ...


If you read my blog, please leave a comment or send an email, I'd love to hear from you :)

Daddy was right ...

A few years ago, I corresponded with somebody who made a big impact on my life.
His name was Michael - I wish we hadn't lost touch.
I'd never been - or have been since - as close to committing to give myself completely as I was with him.

My mind was in a huge turmoil back then, but now the things he told me make a lot more sense.
This is one of the letters he sent:

Vicki, The reason you're having doubts about being a sub girl could be chemistry. Your conscious mind may want to be Vicki, but your brain is producing too much testosterone to let that happen. If we were together right now, all the male hormones coursing through your body would make you feel self-conscious about how your body looked. You would be too embarrassed to crawl around for me, and you'd definitely feel emasculated having me jump you. If you really want to be Vicki you'll have to actively change yourself physically, and hormones are the only way to do this. On hormones, you'll grow a real set of breasts, it'll be much easier to get that bubble butt, and your face will actually become more feminine. Eventually your mindset will change too, and not only will your lips be fuller and rounder, but you'll actually beg to suck Daddy's dick. On hormones you will need daddy to dominate you. You won't be self-conscious anymore dancing for Daddy, you'll feel sexy. You'll no longer feel emasculated letting Daddy take you from behind, you'll feel satisfied. You'll want your new shapely butt cheeks to shake as Daddy fucks you. Michael

All I can say now is "Daddy was right".
Estrogen rules!

Happy Thanksgiving :)

Just wanted to take a minute and wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving!

Me :)

I'm sure we all have something to be thankful for :)
Feeling a bit lonely myself today, but I have decided to be positive and make today "Thanks for my boobies" day :).
They're definitely growing :)) and from now on I will treat them like they deserve to be.
No more breastforms, some really nice bras (shopping !!), some nice lotion - at least everyday. mmmm

Now I just need someone to want to feel them ..... :)
Happy Booby Day!

Back :)

Just a quick update to let you - whoever you may be - know that I'm finally back!

I'm so happy to report that I've finally taken the plunge and started Hormone Replacement Therapy to help my body match my mind.
14 months and counting so far, and feeling better all the time!

What's a girl to do ... help!

Dear readers,

Vicki is currently at a bit of a crossroad in her life, hence the lack of postings recently.
However, I just realized .... this is a blog and I could, or should, actually share my thoughts and feelings here, maybe even ask for your input :)

I’m actually doing quite well and am now, and have been for the past 2 months, living as a woman as much as possible. Pretty much all the time, unless I'm at work  (although I do indulge and wear my panties then, of course).

It’s soooooooooooooooo wonderful !!! :)
Going to continue for the foreseeable future and see where it takes me.


It does bring up some other issues though, and the last few weeks especially, I've started feeling very awkward when I’m not being Vicki, and a huge desire for wishing my body looked more like I feel it should.

It’s a huge deal.
I've been doing tons of research and ultimately I feel that what needs to happen is for my body AND my mind to change.
There's really only one way to do that, and that's hormones ... girl hormones.

SO ..... that's where I'd love some input - should I start down that path ?

Good morning, Daddy!

It's early in the morning. Wearing nothing but a cute little babydoll, I'm cooking breakfast for Daddy, when you come up behind me.


You pull my hips back and hold your body close to mine, I can feel your hard cock pressing up against the small of my back. It's long, very hot, and pounds with the beating of your heart.

You slide your hands around from my hips to the my ass, cupping the soft smooth cheeks in your hands. You give it a gentle squeeze followed by more soft kisses up and down my neck.

You notice a container of Crisco that I'm using to make your breakfast, sitting open on the counter by the stove. Still standing behind me, you reach over and pick up a couple fingers full of it. With my body facing the stove, I turn my head to the side to look at what Daddy has just picked up. My hand still on the frying pan handle, I know what Daddy has in mind, and I stay put.

With a few strokes, Daddy's big dick is completely greased up, making it shiny and very slippery. You look down at my round butt, the crack is perfectly lined up with the glistening hard cock above it.

You slowly bend your knees to lower your rockhard cock into position. It's pointing up, and the tip is just kissing my tightly puckered hole. You slowly stand up, easing your cock into me. I gasp and close my eyes in delight, not moving, frozen with pleasure as Daddy's huge dick slowly creeps inside me.

When you're all the way in, the thick base of your cock is pressed tightly up against the rim of my pussy. The entire shaft is in, just pulsating.

I grasp the handle of the frying pan tightly in my hand as my body shivers in bliss. The aroma of the sizzling bacon continues to fill the air. You take in a deep breath and my heels lift off the ground slightly. You could pick me up using just your cock if you wanted to.

You feel the connection between us, both physically and emotionally.. The intense love we share is expressed as we both clench our buttocks hard. Daddy is clenching his to force all the blood he can into his raging hard penis, making it as big as possible inside me. I clench mine to make my pussy as tight as I can for Daddy's dick, intensifying his pleasure.

As you slowly start to fuck me, I continue to clench tight, making sure Daddy knows how much I appreciate his attention, and wanting to make sure he knows how happy it makes me to give him pleasure.

My eyes still closed, I find myself instinctively pushing back towards you, slowly moving back so that my hands can rest on the edge of the kitchen counter, giving you even better access to my tight little pussy. I gasp as you push in even harder ... "yes, Daddy", I whisper, "take me !"

You grab my hips with your strong hands and start fucking my ass in earnest, driving your wonderful cock in deep inside with each thrust forward, while I'm alternating between clenching and relaxing - allowing you to go as deep as you want and trying to provide my Daddy with as much pleasure as possible.

The sound and smell of bacon starting to burn suddenly makes me realize I've forgotten to take the pan off the burner."your breakfast, Daddy, your breakfast". Keeping your dick deep inside my ass, you stop thrusting just long enough for me to remove the bacon from the pan. I turn off the stove and return to my previous position, leaning my hands on the kitchen counter.

"I'm sorry, Daddy", I whisper, bowing my head.

"Why ?"

"For almost burning your breakfast and interrupting your pleasure, Sir"

"Present, girl !" you say a little sternly. With that I lower my head to the counter and arch my back as much as possible, presenting my round butt to you as best as I can.

I know what to expect, yet when that first swat stings my cheek I still let out a little gasp. My butt hole clenches, squeezing your hard cock still inside me, which I know is one of the reasons you love to spank my butt while you fuck me. Three more times your hand swats my butt cheeks, then I feel your hands gently rub the redness, before getting another good grip on my hips.

"Thank you, Daddy" I whisper softly

"Good girl" you say, while starting to thrust your cock inside your girl once more.

"Fuck me hard, Daddy, please fuck me hard" I gasp, feeling your manhood driving into me.

With that I feel your cock tensing and your hands grip my hips even tighter, sensing you are about to cum, I squeeze my pussy as much as I can.

"mmmmmmmmmmmmmm"

"Give it to me Daddy" I say, as I feel your cum filling my insides. "Thank you, Daddy!"

As you slowly pull out, I reach over to the toybox on the counter to pull out one of my buttplugs and, as always after a good fucking, push it up my pussy to keep your cum inside. Satiated, you lean up against the counter, while I grab a clean washcloth from the cupboard. After getting it wet with some warm water, I squat in front of you and gently wash your beautiful cock and balls, probably lingering more than necessary. When I'm done, I softly kiss the tender head of your dick ... "Thank you, Daddy, I love you"

You pat me on the head, and allow me to get up.

You give me a quick kiss on the cheek and say "Good girl, Vicki, I'll have that breakfast now".

As you walk back to the bedroom, I get back to your breakfast - my plug constantly reminding me of you as I prepare your breakfast in bed ...

mmmmm

Happy 2010 ...

Well, a new year, maybe a new start for Vicki.

It's amazing that I've got more than 100 followers of this little blog - and I'm hoping that at least some of those are actually interested in my thoughts and adventures.

Speaking of adventures, life has been a bit boring lately, all these holidays over the last few months appear to have kept potential daddies as well as myself very busy, so no fun stuff to share so far this year.
Bummer! :(
On the upside, I have been corresponding with a new man for the last week or so, he's put my psyche back where it belongs, thinking only of pleasuring a man .....


2009 - the year in review :

• Daddies met in real life : 2 (not including casual meetings, only those I really tasted)
• Daddies met online : 3 (not including one liners, only those I had serious discussions with)
• Panties purchased : 12
• Bras purchased : 5
• Skirts purchased : 7
• Shoes purchased : 3 pair
• Stockings purchased : 1 pair
• Dildos and buttplugs purchased : 2
• and lots of makeup, lipstick, skin care products

One of my favorite pictures of the year ...

New story coming soon too ... anyone interested ?

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Breakfast in bed ...

Like every morning, I wake early and carefully roll out of bed, making sure not to wake Daddy, still sleeping soundly. You've got a busy day ahead and needs your rest. I quickly grab a pair of panties and a nighty and quietly run down to the kitchen to start the coffee.
While that is brewing, I have time for a quick shower, Daddy like his girl to be clean and smooth at all times. I wash my hair and body, making sure I'm squeaky clean everywhere, do a quick touchup on any stray hairs (not many of those anymore, it seems the hormones are helping a lot with that), dry off, do my face care and moisturize the rest of my body - feels so nice ... A little bit of pink lip gloss, just to keep my lips nice and soft, a dusting of powder, slip into my panties and nighty, and hurry back into the kitchen to start breakfast.

Daddy has an important meeting today, major clients from out of town, and you've told me that you'd be expecting a good hearty breakfast in bed this morning. I love breakfast in bed with Daddy. While your sausages are cooking, I toast a couple of slices of wheat bread and peel an orange for myself. Daddy says it helps enhance my butt and keeps me nice and slim. A few more pieces of toast for Daddy go in the toaster, and I eat my breakfast while your eggs are cooking. Checking the clock, I see that I've timed it perfectly, 2 minutes before Daddy has told me to wake him up. I put your breakfast on a tray, and run back to the bedroom.

Just as I walk back in, Daddy starts to stir and I quietly crawl into bed with you. I love to snuggle up to Daddy as he wakes, such a strong masculine contrast to my femininity. I put my hand gently on your half hard cock and softly kiss his cheek to wake him. 'thank you, baby', you say, 'go get breakfast for me now'. I run back to the kitchen, hearing you in the bathroom, pour a cup of coffee and some juice and bring those and the tray back to the bedroom, just as you're getting comfortable again, propping some pillows up against the headboard, so you can sit and enjoy your breakfast. I stand beside the bed with the tray, and when you're settled, you take it from me and start eating. I wait patiently beside the bed, and after a few bites you reach out and pat my butt 'good girl, it's very good'. At the same time you adjust your body a little and spread your legs, and with a little flick of your head point me towards your cock.

It's the signal I've been waiting for, and I eagerly crawl up on the bed between Daddy's strong legs and gently start kissing your manhood. As you continue to eat your breakfast, I start sucking your cock in earnest, feeling it grow hard in my mouth. I look up at you, and you smile back at me, reaching out to give one of my breasts a quick squeeze, then you push my head back down, almost making me gag on your by now really hard cock. I know you don't want to cum while you're still eating, so I close my eyes and just continue to gently suckle that cock I love so much.

Finally I hear you put your silverware down, so I pause while you move the tray and get a little more comfortable. I feel Daddy's hand on the back of my head, grabbing a handful of my hair, pushing me back down - time for me to get serious about your cock. I wrap one hand around the base of Daddy's manhood and fondle your balls with the other, sucking hard while my tongue rubs you up and down. You taste soooo good !
I can't help moaning with delight, 'mmmmmmmmm', bobbing up and down, licking, squeezing and sucking. I can barely hear you say 'good girl, Vicki' as your breathing gets a little heavier, feeling your balls start to tense. That's the sign for me, I want to taste Daddy's cum so bad, and I redouble my efforts. As I feel the first squirt hit the back of my throat, I feel Daddy's hand holding me down, keeping my lips tightly around the head of your dick, (don't want to get the sheets dirty) I suck and lick until every last drop is gone. Finally I glance up at you, and see you smiling back at me 'good girl, Vicki', as I swallow the last little bit, and lay my head on your stomach, feeling you gently caressing me. I'm such a lucky girl. ' I love you, Daddy'.
After a few minutes, you tell me it's time to get up and I reluctantly move from between your legs, get up from the bed, grab your dirty dishes and head to the kitchen to clean up. As I finish washing the dishes, I hear you in the shower, wishing I was in there with you ... Instead, I run back to the bedroom and lay out Daddy's clothes for the day. You've got an important meeting so I get out your new dark blue suit, white shirt, and a nice tie. Daddy always looks so handsome all dressed up. Makes me so proud to be your girl. As I'm grabbing some underwear, socks, shoes and belt for you, the bedroom door opens and you come back in, all freshly showered. You look approvingly at the clothes I have picked out for you, give me a little pat on the butt, and start to get dressed.
I sit down on the edge of the bed, watching my Daddy, your taste still in my mouth, satisfied knowing Daddy's cum is in my tummy. Pretty soon it's time for you to head off to work. I grab your car keys and wallet off your dresser and hand them to you as you start to move towards the door. 'Have a great day, Daddy', I say as you grab my ass one last time before heading out, 'I love you'. 'Be a good girl today for me, Vicki, I just may have a surprise for you when I get home tonight ...'. 'Of course, Daddy, always' I say sincerely, smiling and moving my body as close to you as possible, you reach around and grab both of my butt cheeks, hard, and give me a soft kiss on the lips. I feel like such a lucky girl to have a Daddy like you!


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Vicki really is still here ....

I realized that I did owe my readers an update on Vicki's progress over the last few months.

Although my search for the Daddy that can really take charge of me is still ongoing, I have been consistently working toward being ready when he finally arrives ...
I know that being a sissy little cock slut is my destiny, I can feel it, I relish it. It is such an overwhelmingly important part of me, and the man that finally captures me will not be disappointed - my desire to please has very few limits, and I know I will do whatever it takes to make and keep him happy !

I've started a skin care regimen, something I feel many of us neglect. Moisturizing, proper cleansing, they are so important to keeping our skin soft and smooth .... and touchable :)
Speaking of soft skin, I've been very, very diligent in keeping any body hair to a minimum, regular waxing has really helped keep the hairgrowth down. I guess I'm fortunate that there's not too much there in the first place, but nice smooth legs and chest are an absolute must for any sissy. And it feels soooo good :)
Lingerie, wonderful sensuous lingerie ..... My collection is growing all the time. Panties are a must, of course, every day, but I just adore those beautiful panty and bra sets, and wear them as much as possible. It may be just my imagination, but wearing a bra regularly seems to be helping my breast tissue to stretch and expand a bit, such a joy to be able to see and feel myself filling out those cups (almost B now!!! :)
My buttplugs are getting a lot of use as well, I just love the way those feel, imagining wearing them for my Daddy, waiting for him to remove it when he's ready ...

I could be such a good little girl ....

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Summer is here :)

Time to work on that tan !

Something sooooo sexy about tan lines .....

Isn't this pretty ?

Just love this little outfit ....

Wish it was available around here ....

Have a date tomorrow, I'm sure he would like it ;)

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Alone again ...

Every time I think things are looking up, I get brought back down to earth - these men just don't stick around. A little fun here and there, but anything beyond a 'date' or two seems to be too much.
I may be a sissy dick doll, but that doesn't mean I don't appreciate being appreciated .....
Just like any other girl, I appreciate drinks, dinner and conversation. I love hearing compliments and feeling pretty and desirable.
I work hard at trying to look my best, probably way more than a real girl does (only because they tend to have a genetic advantage).

I'll keep moving along, enhancing my femininity as best as I can - patiently waiting for the man I know is out there .... one that will be able to bring out the 'good' girl in me, and let me truly express my innermost self.

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More changes ... for the better ...

Well ... things are looking up !

I believe I may have found another man to give me the push and direction I need.
We're going to call him 'Master', as per his request.

Master has already provided me with some guidance on improving this little sissy slut :)
1. Butt plug from lunch to end of work, and from 7 to 10 pm
-- I've gotten out of this habit a while ago, but eager to get back to this wonderful daily feeling :)
2. Clear lip gloss to be worn at home at all times
-- just love to run my tongue along my glossy lips
3. Panties all the time, never be out of panties unless in the shower - on 24/7/365
-- I love my panties, you know, so that won't be that difficult
4. Wear red lipstick at least 10 minutes a day - even if I have to stand in the bathroom to do it.
RED IS A MUST FOR SISSY SLUTS and he wants me to start to "crave" red lips.
-- mmmmmm :) see rule 2 ...

I feel very lucky to have been given this chance to improve myself again :)
Thank you, Master !

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Ch Ch Changes ....

Guess that wasn't very nice of me, my previous post was a little short on info ....

Anyway, I have not seen or heard from 'daddy' for a few months now, and frankly I just can't wait any longer - life is short and girls (especially this one) just wanna have fun.

I've had quite a few discussions with other eligible gentlemen, but somehow most of them just don't seem to pan out. My guess is that I'm not the only one with that problem - fantasies are one thing but when push comes to shove (don't know why .. but that phrase somehow got me thinking about something else entirely) the vast majority of men seem to not be able to really follow through or just disappear completely. How rude is that ? I may be a submissive little slut, but I have feelings too, you know ....

Anyway, back to square one for now - any good strong men out there looking for a good little girl to take care of their needs ?

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Early November already ....

Well, first of all, my apologies to my readers for the lack of updates over the last few months. Things are changing for Vicki.

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